Sunday, May 30, 2010
“What’s my devastating weakness?”
Being unable to be honest is the devastating weakness. I’m looking at me with honesty for the first time… I have too much emotion. The weakness is that I’m attracted to emotional trauma. I cover up what’s going on inside of me, so when I see it in you it exposes me and I don’t want to see it.
When do I have a sense of isolation? What are the messages from my injured mind? Blame and self-justification… What’s my motive?
Look at the feelings that can be identified as my devastating weakness: remorse, guilt, bitterness, envy, hate, insecurity, panic, self-loathing. It’s not the situation. It’s the way I react to the situation.
I live by the virtue of knowing I love, not the circumstance of thinking that I have to…
For one week, see how much you blame others for your feelings or behavior.
Highlights from July 13, 2008
Blame flag = you (person, place or thing) are the cause of my problems (condition)
Blame flag = I am a victim
Blame flag = I am not responsible
Since I don’t want to be a victim and I do want to be responsible: “God will you show me, direct how to change to meet changing conditions and give me the power to adapt, if it be Thy will.”
KC, your Ustream meetings are missed. Thank you for doing them in the past.
Best personal regards, Roger